Then he said,” Don’t be afraid, Daniel. Since the first day you began to pray for understanding
and to humble yourself before your God, your request has been heard in heaven.
I have come to answer your prayer.”
I have never really known what I’ve wanted to do with my life.
In grade school, I always said I wanted to be a chef. I went to college starting off on the international business track. Then journalism. Then English. Then toured a culinary school and ruled out being a chef for good. Then finally settled on history, because it was something I enjoyed learning about, not because I wanted to have a career in it. All during college, I worked in various fields: retail, a restaurant, after-school daycare then retail again.
After graduating, I still didn’t know what I wanted to do, so I ran away to Germany. When I came back home a year later, I was still clueless, so I was a receptionist then a legal assistant, then finally became a teacher. After having William, I didn’t want to be anywhere other than with him, so I’ve been a stay-at-home mom for 3 years. During those 3 years, I always felt like I needed to do more to help out, so I sold jewelry (better believe I attached the link).
Then finally, almost a year ago, I started The SAHMpreneur with the intentions of passing on my “wisdom” to those wanting to be or already were stay-at-moms. Let’s be real though, most reading this were family and friends trying to support my endeavors. For that I am eternally grateful.
But for the last few months, since October 21st to be exact, I have started thinking that this blog is just a beginning platform for something bigger. Much bigger. Way bigger than me (or anyone reading this).
I haven’t been one who immediately realizes God is speaking to me. I still don’t know the difference between something God has told me and just my mind wandering. So that’s why starting today, January 15, 2018, I will participate in my second-ever fast. For those unfamiliar with the purpose of fasting, read this interview with a pastor.
God is doing something massive in my life, and in order to find out what His dream is for me, I need to surrender myself and items that are filling the void that was meant for Him. My prayers throughout this fast will focus on family and personal issues, but mainly to receive clarity on what God started telling me on that October day—the only thing I KNOW God directly said to me.
I will reveal more when the time comes, or when I, myself, receive more information. But for now, this dream God has for my life will be between me and Him, then discussed with my husband, soul sisters, and those I trust for guidance and wisdom.
For this fast, I am not only giving up food that has disguised itself as irreplaceable comfort, but I’m also forgoing social media for the 21 days. I will be doing an intense devotional, reading books that will help me uncomplicate the battle raging inside me, but most importantly, studying the Word—something that needs to be done as an adult and with a freshly-renewed Christian mind (since the last time I * sort of * did that was in high school, and let’s be real, I don’t remember much of those classes).
So I asked for prayers, and lots of them. Pray that I remain strong during the fast. Pray that I receive the next part of God’s plan for me. Pray that I remain obedient to Him and His dream. Pray that I find the aid I may need, when I need it to achieve this dream. Just, pray for me.
Please and thank you.